Tuesday, October 03, 2006
motivational speech of the day
why do i need somebody to hold my hand? you'd think i would have caught on by now that there's no one out there that is going to flank me and provide the same sort of support that i have dished out in the past. i am not going to get over this. i do not know where to go. i can't save us. i will have to return from this long journey covered in dishonour. i am one of those useless playthings that poeple are attracted to for 5 seconds and then forget. my life has been a waste. i am a failure. i can't pull us out of this nose dive.
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good grief, what bullshit.
covered in dishonor? what does that mean? you've robbed, raped, murdered and pillaged? no, you've raised kids, cooked, cleaned and gardened and oh yah, tried every step of the way.
so you're not yet the tycoon of luxembourg, so maybe you won't ever be... so fucking what.
enough of this shit -- if this is what hanging on brings you to, then fuck fear... pack your shit, sell the rest and bail. scratch out your territory in a new place, reinvent yourself without all the limitations that now so bind you.
but ACT, damn it -- there are so many things you can do besides wallow. let him take the damn job, wherever -- even fucking texas -- at least you won't be stuck, right?
i know you mean well vf. and you're not wrong. but i don't think you know what the job market is like here. i invite you to go to monster.lu and see how inspired it makes you. with your cv. which is no doubt better than mine. how's your german? how's your french? your luxembourgish? your requisite degree in finance?
My information is that in order to be competitive in the US or Canada (not an option as hub is not visa'd) you need an MA. i want to go to LA. there's energy there and i won't be surrounded by republicans. my hub says his buddies there are shallow and the ones that have families are cutting out because it's not financially feasible. he says we wouldn't make enough money.
i'm ready to work my tail off. that's not the problem. the problem is that there is a major hole in the titanic and no land in sight.of course i'm busy stuffing that hole with every peice of furniture and every table cloth i can find. and if we lose it all and have to start over, yes, i will do my best tap dance and smile and maybe even have a great time...but until then, what do i tell my kids when i have to take them out of school in january? if they lose their spots, being, US citizens and not french, they will NEVER get back in again. yeah, kids are resiliant. I know.
i don't want to be a fucking tycoon. i just want a job. there is NO JOB yet. anywhere.
so i was a little dramatic the other night. poet's license. i'd been up all night wallowing.
and yes to robbed. yes to raped, although not relevant anymore. no to murdered, thank god. and possibly pillaged very soon. the dishonour is my problem - i know- nobody's branding me with that.
i still like you a whole lot. thanks for the smack in the head.
drenched in dishonour
dribbled in dishonour
dark with dishonour
dancing...d d d something with d...
draped! DRAPED IN DISHOUNOUR! YES! THAT'S IT! i'm so good
lol... draped, is it?
i understand that jobs are scarce there for you... looking for a job anywhere totally sucks, and it's demoralizing like almost nothing else, unless you happen to be one of those occupations for which people advertise, i.e., accountant, attorney, nurse, engineer, et cetera.
my point surely wasn't that you aren't trying, nor to make light of the trap in which you find yourself... but to say that if a move is the way out of this, well, maybe that's not a bad thing.
and yah, to maybe smack you around a bit, so you didn't get used to pity parties. you've got lots of hell yet to raise, so quit sounding like you're ready to surrender...
okay, and just in case i sounded too mean, here's a hug, too.
;)
of course, i didn't mean to hurt your feelings; hope you know that...
Erm....the darkest hour is just before the dawn and all that..all I can offer is platitudes and they don't shift anything. It's a bit like the birth thing before the head crowns this bit...painful but woman is capable of anything:)
i rock at giving birth
i know vf. you're sweet.
i don't have any feelings. (hee hee)
so not true.
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